“Go f*ck yourself!” Is the spiritual practice of “Non-reactivity” self-loving?

Last night, I heard the words “Well, he can go fuck himself” fly out of my mouth. I was on a phone call with one of my best friends, who was trying to understand a conflict I had had in my past. For the sake of the anonymity of my friends, I will not divulge … More “Go f*ck yourself!” Is the spiritual practice of “Non-reactivity” self-loving?

Three| How Bulimia and Suicide Caressed my Face

It just seemed like it would be easier to end things quickly rather than to continue the slow and arduous path to self-love and self-discovery. At times, even, those two states didn’t register as a possibility for me. I thought “coming out” would have felt like relief or perhaps like the weight of the world was lifted off … More Three| How Bulimia and Suicide Caressed my Face

My triggered little gatekeeper: How I Finally started my YouTube Channel “A Modern Spiritualist!”

There are a number of reasons why anyone would feel scared or trepidus about starting a YouTube channel. Even more so if it is a channel on spiritualism! The ego, or internal monologue (however you chose to call that defensive little voice inside your head), goes crazy with the “what-ifs” and the “how-abouts.” It feels … More My triggered little gatekeeper: How I Finally started my YouTube Channel “A Modern Spiritualist!”

“Verisimilitude,” a personal poem I found in my USB drive.

I found this poem, “Verisimilitude,” in one of my USB drives. I wrote it as my “Diversity Project” for a Music Education course I took in Music School. At that time (circ. 2009) I was in the heart of dealing with my self-image, sexual identity, my eating disorder and my commitment to life. I read … More “Verisimilitude,” a personal poem I found in my USB drive.